This entire year has been challenging. My father got sick and being in the medical field, I felt like I knew all too well that this was just the beginning of so much more heartache. I involved myself in all his appointments and testing. Trying to keep things organized so my mom could fully grasp all the new things that needed to be done. I know I am being vague, but remember I am still trying to keep some things private.
Along with helping my parents, I had my own son to worry about. Remember in my previous post I mentioned having a type 1 diabetic? He had his own follow ups and testing that needed to be done. I also spent the year teaching him the responsibilities I was in control of. Knowing he would be moving out of the house, I needed to know and feel comfort that he could handle scheduling his own appointments. Calling the 1800 numbers if there was an issue with his dexcom or insulin pump. Oh, there were so many things to go over with him. Today, 6 months later, he is doing better but will still call to verify a phone number. Guess he’s on the right track, huh.
To make things worse my husband did a lot of traveling for work and was out of town off and on for the last 3 years. As you can imagine, I was stressed and just felt so alone. I was unable to sleep and based on the sleeping patterns documented on my phone I was only getting about 4 hours of sleep a night. Are you thinking, Yeah, right. What a lie…. Not sleeping is nothing to lie about. It did take its toll on my health. Let me just say, attempting to drown myself in alcohol with the hope it would make me sleep was not ideal. In fact it made things so much worse. I stress ate, gained weight, I was cranky and may have made everyone feel like they are walking on eggshells. Yep, that’s right. No one wanted to be around me and to be honest I did not want to be around me. And to conclude all my problems, I had a breakdown right before New Years. Right when we should be celebrating a new year and all the new goals to come, all the things I refused to talk about, all the things I had built up inside just came out. Uncontrollable tears just drained from my face while I gasped for air because apparently I forgot to breathe.
I can safely say I am doing better. I started working on myself. I started to allow my parents to take themselves to appointments when they felt comfortable to do so. I pushed my son even harder to accomplish his adult duties himself. I sat by and helped guide him, but I just threw him there and made him do small tasks alone. Hey, he had to learn anyway right. My husband was just about done with his work project and started spending more time at home. It’s an amazing comfort to have your husband home. Sometimes I just needed him there in complete silence, I just couldn’t be alone. I had a goal to stop drinking if I couldn’t control my behavior. Basically I had good days and days where I could feel my nerves were edgy and my emotions just wanted to spill out at the most inconvenient time.
And here is where I found and started reading up on angel signs. As I looked up inspiration, manifestation, words of encouragement, there it was. One day as I was scrolling through social media, Project 369 popped up. I bypassed it and kept scrolling, never thinking twice about what the title really meant or curious about a project. The days that followed it kept popping up and the reviews of so many people who believed and recommended the book. I finally clicked on the link, read the description and came to the conclusion it could help me find whatever it was I felt was missing in my wonderful life. I have no affiliation or get commissions for any of you who like to purchase a book of your own, I just want to share, in the event you would also like to dive into this. Project 369 Now, I am no astronomer but I like reading about Zodiac signs, especially my own. I have always believed things are written in the stars. All the books offered by Project 369 are workbooks to help you manifest into the best version of yourself. By the words of Nikola Tesla, “If you knew the significance of 3,6,9 you would hold the key to the universe” There are explanations of a non- physical real and the energy it holds with frequency and vibrations.
I found the part explaining angel signs to be fascinating and it spoke to me like, maybe this is the part I was missing and was in need of. Keep your eyes and your mind open and you will notice signs and small messages when you need them most. From the book and of course Google, I will briefly share the meanings and think to yourself if you have ever noticed these. What was happening in the world around you and what was going through your mind when you saw them?
Angel Number 1:
Includes numbers 111 and 1111 and signifies a new beginning. A spiritual awakening, and alignment with your true purpose. Keep your faith.
Angel Number 2:
Includes 222 and 2222 and means you need to prioritize, align and balance or realign something. Just find balance in your life.
Angel Number 3:
Includes 333and 3333and is for positive energy and creativity.
Angel Number 4:
Includes 444 and 4444 and is for Stability and strong foundations.
Angel Number 5:
Includes 555 and 5555. It signifies new opportunities, good luck and personal growth.
Angel Number 6:
Includes 666 and 6666 means Dream big, be kind and understanding to yourself.
Angel Number 7:
Includes 777 and 7777 is Inner wisdom, deep connection and knowledge.
Angel Number 8:
Includes 888 and 8888 has the meaning of abundance, karma, and manifestation.
Angel Number 9:
Includes 999 and 9999 is for rebirth, a new beginning, end of a cycle or chapter.
Angel Number 0:
Includes 000 and 0000 means to focus on your spiritual path, unity and wholeness.
Numerous times during the last few weeks I have seen the following:
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